Sunday, November 8, 2009

getting over my past!!

Have you ever thought about your life and realized that it isnt working the way it is supposed to work?? you go to college/office, work hard, return home and sleep and repeat the process. you work as hard as you can, you have sleepless nights and even 24 hours seem less to you but still there's something missing. you feel like time is running out and you havnt even started the "real" thing you wnt to do. lately i have been facing the same feeling...
today i wasnt well..was on bed the whole day and apart from sleeping i kept thinking.. looking back at my past years and thinking what went wrong.. my life isnt really what i wanted it to be.. this isnt really how i had pictured myself. It seemed as if i wasted a lot of years doing something which didnt even add to anything. and thus i have decided to work up hard to gather my life together and live like i wanted to. there are phases in lfe which make you think that you have nothing earned as compred to what others have.. be it in relatonships, money, career or whatever. but sometimes you need just to take a break and think. we all know that life doesnt work according to our plans..but then we cant stop making them..in the same manner as we cant stop living just cos we are going to die may be tommrrow.. so here i am making another plan for my life.. picturing myself again in the future.. trying to live the way i should have some 4 years ago.. still its never too late to start over again.. wish me luck!!!