I have a dream in my eyes!!

"Do you wana play table tennis?", asked my friend as we were returning from the institute. "Sure", i gave a quick reply. As we started playing my friend said,"We enjoy playing so much. How great it would have been if we were in some sports institute. We would have been so much better at grades". I chuckled at the amusing thought. But then the train of thoughts began and i couldn't concentrate on the game anymore.Its funny but true that we can run from speaking, we can run from listening but we can't run from thoughts. They come to us like an uninvited guest and captivate our mind like a hijacker and stay in it till the time they want. There's no way out of thinking espl for me. As much as i was enjoying playing i kept thinking about the thing my friend said. "Quick question", I said,"What did you wana become when you were a kid? ". "A dancer or a sports person may be". But what she became is an Engineer. we kept talking..
"Why didn't you try to become one?"...
"I couldnt...i neither had the resources nor the support"...
"But you have it now.."
"Its too late now.. ", she said.
This is what my post is about. And what i call it is 'PASSION'. As a kid i always wanted to become a doctor..and i used to say "i'll become a muft doctor"..(one who wouldn't charge for treatment..)..cos i thought helping people was the best job one could get into...As i grew up i knew it was certainly my interest but not my passion.My passion was hidden in the antakshari's and group song games I used to play with friends. And one day i realised that all i wanted to do was to sing..I started singing in events..i joined the college band and was proud to be known by the other students as the lead singer of the band. I performed in front of hundreds of people not only in my institute but outside as well but my hunger to sing wasnt satisfied.Today, I am an engineer by degree but i have a dream...i have a dream that some day i will be singing in front of not hundreds but thousands of people.My passion is to sing..and stage is where i belong...
As a kid we all had thought of a future. some of us were able to realise their dreams and some of us werent. The question to ask is, how many of us are still trying to live for their passion?? Some people might say we have already lived so much of this life, we just cant leave this all just like that. True, but if you really have a passion isnt it worth giving a shot?? just dont let the dream in you die cos you couldn't do anything for it in the past. How can it be too late when all we have got is one life. How can we be happy doing something when we know our life is bound with something else. There's always a way to turn things right. Its never too late...I read somewhere, "God has sent us all with gifts..but some never open the pckages".. All i want to say is, open yours. Let the world know your talent. Let your heart be satisfied.
I am working on my passion..i might be moving slowly.. but i know i will be there.... soon. I won't let my passion die just like that..I owe it to myself..I will make my dream come true..will you ???

Dear Diary

Here I was surfing net as usual and listening to some of my favourite songs when this song “Dear Diary” by Britney reminded me of my own diary. Yes, I am a diary person… I don’t jot down every second of my life every day (thinking that would be published as my biography after I m dead…that would be so lame!!) , but yes, I do write when I feel like communicating with myself for a change. I will surely write sometime on why I write a diary or why it’s a healthy habit that everyone should follow. But for now, let’s just focus on the thing that I am here to write about.

So I was listening to this song and I thought of reading my old diary which I wrote some four years ago and as I had never imagined, every single page I read made me laugh even more than the previous one. The first thing that came into my mind was, “I can’t believe I was so immature”. Yes, I surely was very immature. I had written about small small things that hurt me and how immature my behaviour to such scenarios was and now these things didn’t even make any difference to me or my life anymore. I didn’t care about that stuff anymore. Isn’t it funny how unpredictable our life is. One day we are crying out our eyes for something and the a few months later we don’t even care a little bit about it. There I was writing about things in my diary that obviously were important to me at that point of time and now I don’t even remember them.

I thought, “Is this just me or does everyone feel like this when we read old stuff? ” I did a little research on the topic from net and bang!! I was right. Every single person had felt the same thing after reading an old diary.Everyone thought that they were immature and stupid back then. The point I am trying to make is that we all face problems and bad phases in life. And it seems like the bad things will make our life miserable. We tend to think that these things will leave their mark. But to our relief the truth is that we have a very week memory and a very strong heart. We grow with time both mentally and physically. And over time these things become so small that our brain erases the pain away. Of course there are things that are too strong for the brain to erase but then, that’s where sanity makes the decision. So let’s just stop worrying about small things like when someone hurt you or something that made you feel terrible. Just concentrate on the good things because these will be there with you forever. So why think about stuff that won't matter a few days later and waste the precious time of our life when we can enjoy being alive and stay happy.

Life is what we want it to be…we are what we want to be… this is the ultimate truth…and all we need to do in order to be happy is to ‘stay happy’…just smile your pains and troubles away…because this is the ultimate way of living…because this is called life!!!

getting over my past!!

Have you ever thought about your life and realized that it isnt working the way it is supposed to work?? you go to college/office, work hard, return home and sleep and repeat the process. you work as hard as you can, you have sleepless nights and even 24 hours seem less to you but still there's something missing. you feel like time is running out and you havnt even started the "real" thing you wnt to do. lately i have been facing the same feeling...
today i wasnt well..was on bed the whole day and apart from sleeping i kept thinking.. looking back at my past years and thinking what went wrong.. my life isnt really what i wanted it to be.. this isnt really how i had pictured myself. It seemed as if i wasted a lot of years doing something which didnt even add to anything. and thus i have decided to work up hard to gather my life together and live like i wanted to. there are phases in lfe which make you think that you have nothing earned as compred to what others have.. be it in relatonships, money, career or whatever. but sometimes you need just to take a break and think. we all know that life doesnt work according to our plans..but then we cant stop making them..in the same manner as we cant stop living just cos we are going to die may be tommrrow.. so here i am making another plan for my life.. picturing myself again in the future.. trying to live the way i should have some 4 years ago.. still its never too late to start over again.. wish me luck!!!

My New Bginning

So here I am, 8.20 am in the morning, writing an article for my blog after so many days... and yes it does feel good… because today I have done a new beginning in my life. Starting from today I m living a new life, a disciplined one. My life hasn’t been without discipline earlier...its just that I prefered living it my way..doing whatever I felt at whatever time. Be it having lunch at 5pm and skipping breakfast or be it sleping at 4 in the morning and waking up at 8am. But from today everything has changed.

Today I woke up at 5.30 am and got ready for my jog. And as I had decided I was on the road at 6am. I did my jogging till 6.30 and then went up the terrace to do a little exercise and yoga till 7am. Then I went to wake up a friend who usually gets up earlier than me J . She suggested playing some table tennis, then snooker...it all finished up till 8 am. So I took bath and now I m here writing about it because this really feels good and I know I am going to do this again.

There are just two things needed for me and everyone else in life: health and career. So from now onwards I am working towards it keeping my mind focused on this. Because life without an aim or a goal is not life. We may think we can spend our life without struggling and taking the pains…but then it wont be worth living… If you stop STRUGGLING then you stop LIVING...because this struggle is what makes life what it is..as its not the options we get, but the choices we make that make what life is and predict what it is going to be… because this is called living…because this is called life.

What I expect from IIITM,gwalior

Note: IIITM recently published its 2nd edition of the alumni magzine IIITM-OUR ALMA MATER. All "industry ambassdors" of each branch were told to submit an article on the above mentioned topic so that it may be printed in the same. When the magzine came out i was more than glad to see that out of whole Mtech only my article was published. thanks to ravi as well who helped me in the same.here is the article for everyone to read. this is what i actually expect from IIITM.
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It wasn’t a tough decision for me at the outset to opt for IIITM Gwalior as a choice to pursue my MTech education. IIITM’s reputation of being an apex technology institute formed by the Govt of India and being a strong brand helped me in my decision. Today a month after I joined, I feel happy for my choice.

IIITM being run by a team of proficient veterans promises to churn out able technology leaders of tomorrow. I imagine myself as a finished product coming out of the college after a couple of years with requisite skills and expertise; and rise to the challenge in the world of IT industry. As IIITM’s vision is to achieve global excellence in knowledge economy, I want to committ myself to this shared vision. I believe this institute will provide me requisite support to realise this vision.

Along with technical expertise, I also want to learn human relations and managerial skills. It has been a concern in India that Indian workforce are technically sound but when it comes to man management, a lot is left to be desired. Therefore, I also hope IIITM provides me ample scope to improve my man management skills and managerial abilities in general.

The kind of opportunites that IIITM has already provided me in this short span, I am confident I will grow individually as a person and make the institue proud with my accomplishments. As our respected Director sir has already said, “Peer to peer learning is the back bone of IIITM”, I also believe I will draw from the experiences and interactions from my fellow mates and faculties to grow into a true professional.

I expect the faculty here not to be just the faculty but to be the life mentors to us and guide us through not just within this two years but all through our lifetime, whenever we need their advice.

Regards,

Isha