getting over my past!!

Have you ever thought about your life and realized that it isnt working the way it is supposed to work?? you go to college/office, work hard, return home and sleep and repeat the process. you work as hard as you can, you have sleepless nights and even 24 hours seem less to you but still there's something missing. you feel like time is running out and you havnt even started the "real" thing you wnt to do. lately i have been facing the same feeling...
today i wasnt well..was on bed the whole day and apart from sleeping i kept thinking.. looking back at my past years and thinking what went wrong.. my life isnt really what i wanted it to be.. this isnt really how i had pictured myself. It seemed as if i wasted a lot of years doing something which didnt even add to anything. and thus i have decided to work up hard to gather my life together and live like i wanted to. there are phases in lfe which make you think that you have nothing earned as compred to what others have.. be it in relatonships, money, career or whatever. but sometimes you need just to take a break and think. we all know that life doesnt work according to our plans..but then we cant stop making them..in the same manner as we cant stop living just cos we are going to die may be tommrrow.. so here i am making another plan for my life.. picturing myself again in the future.. trying to live the way i should have some 4 years ago.. still its never too late to start over again.. wish me luck!!!

My New Bginning

So here I am, 8.20 am in the morning, writing an article for my blog after so many days... and yes it does feel good… because today I have done a new beginning in my life. Starting from today I m living a new life, a disciplined one. My life hasn’t been without discipline earlier...its just that I prefered living it my way..doing whatever I felt at whatever time. Be it having lunch at 5pm and skipping breakfast or be it sleping at 4 in the morning and waking up at 8am. But from today everything has changed.

Today I woke up at 5.30 am and got ready for my jog. And as I had decided I was on the road at 6am. I did my jogging till 6.30 and then went up the terrace to do a little exercise and yoga till 7am. Then I went to wake up a friend who usually gets up earlier than me J . She suggested playing some table tennis, then snooker...it all finished up till 8 am. So I took bath and now I m here writing about it because this really feels good and I know I am going to do this again.

There are just two things needed for me and everyone else in life: health and career. So from now onwards I am working towards it keeping my mind focused on this. Because life without an aim or a goal is not life. We may think we can spend our life without struggling and taking the pains…but then it wont be worth living… If you stop STRUGGLING then you stop LIVING...because this struggle is what makes life what it is..as its not the options we get, but the choices we make that make what life is and predict what it is going to be… because this is called living…because this is called life.

What I expect from IIITM,gwalior

Note: IIITM recently published its 2nd edition of the alumni magzine IIITM-OUR ALMA MATER. All "industry ambassdors" of each branch were told to submit an article on the above mentioned topic so that it may be printed in the same. When the magzine came out i was more than glad to see that out of whole Mtech only my article was published. thanks to ravi as well who helped me in the same.here is the article for everyone to read. this is what i actually expect from IIITM.
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It wasn’t a tough decision for me at the outset to opt for IIITM Gwalior as a choice to pursue my MTech education. IIITM’s reputation of being an apex technology institute formed by the Govt of India and being a strong brand helped me in my decision. Today a month after I joined, I feel happy for my choice.

IIITM being run by a team of proficient veterans promises to churn out able technology leaders of tomorrow. I imagine myself as a finished product coming out of the college after a couple of years with requisite skills and expertise; and rise to the challenge in the world of IT industry. As IIITM’s vision is to achieve global excellence in knowledge economy, I want to committ myself to this shared vision. I believe this institute will provide me requisite support to realise this vision.

Along with technical expertise, I also want to learn human relations and managerial skills. It has been a concern in India that Indian workforce are technically sound but when it comes to man management, a lot is left to be desired. Therefore, I also hope IIITM provides me ample scope to improve my man management skills and managerial abilities in general.

The kind of opportunites that IIITM has already provided me in this short span, I am confident I will grow individually as a person and make the institue proud with my accomplishments. As our respected Director sir has already said, “Peer to peer learning is the back bone of IIITM”, I also believe I will draw from the experiences and interactions from my fellow mates and faculties to grow into a true professional.

I expect the faculty here not to be just the faculty but to be the life mentors to us and guide us through not just within this two years but all through our lifetime, whenever we need their advice.

Regards,

Isha

A Journey...

My first day at my new college...
27/07/2009


So here I am... at my new college...my new home for the next two years and how am I feeling? Well obviously not at all ‘at home’. I had to face some minor problems today, not just carrying my entire heave luggage to my room at the third floor all by myself but also sleeping on a bed without mattress. Let me not get into the details but the biggest problem I faced today was my father’s accommodation. Here I was thinking that it won’t b any problem but as it turned out even after my mailing and calling the authorities many times, there was still no room reserved for my father. Anyway, finally he got a room at 9 pm and the day was settled. Now I am sitting in my room feeling lonely. No girl of my class has come and I am all alone on the whole floor. I am missing Mumbai and Pune and Hyderabad. The cities and the love they have showered upon me. Well I hated Hyderabad at first but now I wish I were there. Anyway, I tried to get in touch with my friends thru internet but as I haven’t registered as a student yet, I couldn’t log in to the network which required a username and password. Anyway here I am writing this post. Just for you people to know that life is like that. We have to leave aside everything to progress in life. Friends are important but sometimes they can’t be involved in everything you do. Mom once told me, “Life’s like a train journey, some people board the train with you and you talk and get close to them. You share a wonderful journey and some beautiful memories with them. But what you must not forget is that they have to get off the train at some station. And with just memories left, you have to continue your journey. This way make friends but just remember that you have to continue the journey of your life even if your friends are not with you”. So here I am...at my new college...proceeding forward without my friends...all alone...waiting for new passengers to board the train...because this is called life...

a radio show worked...

From past few days i have been depressed... i dont know why.. may be due to the lost of goal.. You must be thinking what i am talking about. Well as I had mentioned in my past posts, i wrote the GATE exam and qualified it with good score.. and now I have got admission into a very prestigious college the Indian Institute of Information Technology and Management, Gwalior. But instead of being happy, I am sad. Not because I didnt want this college but because I dont have anything to do now. I was pretty busy with the admission process. But now its over and there's still time for the classes to begin. and I cant figure out a single way to keep me busy. I am in a new city and have no friends here to hang out with. plus all my friends are so busy in their jobs and other things that i hardly talk to them over phone or so. well i am not writing this post cos i want to talk about my problems..this post is about the solution to my peoblem.. the magical solution i found yesterday evening.
I was listening to a show on radio yesterday evening (as i do every evening).. and suddenly i tuned to this channel (which I always felt was the most depressing one with really bad choice of songs)..to my surprise there was a good radio jockey talking on air and i decided to listen. she was telling a stroy abt a king who had faced some problems and consulted a priest. the priest gave him a note and told him to read it when he faced some problem next time. he told him that the note had magical capability and should not be read or even opened if the king wasn't in some danger or problem. the king obeyed the priest and took the note as a blessing and kept it in his pocket always.. one day the king was out hunting in a jungle when suddenly he got lost and found himself in the territory of the enemy. suddenly he heard a troop of soliders of enemy comming in his direction. he climbed up a tree to hide himself.. suddenly he remembered the note. he took it out of his pocket and read it.. it said "this too shall pass"...
as i heard the story, i felt as if it was meant to b heard by me and many people like me who were in bad phases of life. what magical words "this too shall pass". just to remind us that life is not going to be this way always. its just a phase and will pass soon.
i learnt a major lesson in life thru this one sentence.life is always changing and due to this it sometimes leads us into bad phases where we feel we are stuck forever and we are never going to come out. but what we must remember is that it will be okey in the end. we will come out of this part of life. all we need is to believe and have patience.cos in the end nothing lasts forever.. in the end we have to recollect our energy and be ready to enter a new phase...
i am much relaxed now..all i needed was a line to make me feel better.. watching funny movies ddnt work.. studying ddnt work and what worked was a show in radio..cos of a story and just one magical line "this too shall pass.."... cos this is called life...