Dear Diary

Here I was surfing net as usual and listening to some of my favourite songs when this song “Dear Diary” by Britney reminded me of my own diary. Yes, I am a diary person… I don’t jot down every second of my life every day (thinking that would be published as my biography after I m dead…that would be so lame!!) , but yes, I do write when I feel like communicating with myself for a change. I will surely write sometime on why I write a diary or why it’s a healthy habit that everyone should follow. But for now, let’s just focus on the thing that I am here to write about.

So I was listening to this song and I thought of reading my old diary which I wrote some four years ago and as I had never imagined, every single page I read made me laugh even more than the previous one. The first thing that came into my mind was, “I can’t believe I was so immature”. Yes, I surely was very immature. I had written about small small things that hurt me and how immature my behaviour to such scenarios was and now these things didn’t even make any difference to me or my life anymore. I didn’t care about that stuff anymore. Isn’t it funny how unpredictable our life is. One day we are crying out our eyes for something and the a few months later we don’t even care a little bit about it. There I was writing about things in my diary that obviously were important to me at that point of time and now I don’t even remember them.

I thought, “Is this just me or does everyone feel like this when we read old stuff? ” I did a little research on the topic from net and bang!! I was right. Every single person had felt the same thing after reading an old diary.Everyone thought that they were immature and stupid back then. The point I am trying to make is that we all face problems and bad phases in life. And it seems like the bad things will make our life miserable. We tend to think that these things will leave their mark. But to our relief the truth is that we have a very week memory and a very strong heart. We grow with time both mentally and physically. And over time these things become so small that our brain erases the pain away. Of course there are things that are too strong for the brain to erase but then, that’s where sanity makes the decision. So let’s just stop worrying about small things like when someone hurt you or something that made you feel terrible. Just concentrate on the good things because these will be there with you forever. So why think about stuff that won't matter a few days later and waste the precious time of our life when we can enjoy being alive and stay happy.

Life is what we want it to be…we are what we want to be… this is the ultimate truth…and all we need to do in order to be happy is to ‘stay happy’…just smile your pains and troubles away…because this is the ultimate way of living…because this is called life!!!

getting over my past!!

Have you ever thought about your life and realized that it isnt working the way it is supposed to work?? you go to college/office, work hard, return home and sleep and repeat the process. you work as hard as you can, you have sleepless nights and even 24 hours seem less to you but still there's something missing. you feel like time is running out and you havnt even started the "real" thing you wnt to do. lately i have been facing the same feeling...
today i wasnt well..was on bed the whole day and apart from sleeping i kept thinking.. looking back at my past years and thinking what went wrong.. my life isnt really what i wanted it to be.. this isnt really how i had pictured myself. It seemed as if i wasted a lot of years doing something which didnt even add to anything. and thus i have decided to work up hard to gather my life together and live like i wanted to. there are phases in lfe which make you think that you have nothing earned as compred to what others have.. be it in relatonships, money, career or whatever. but sometimes you need just to take a break and think. we all know that life doesnt work according to our plans..but then we cant stop making them..in the same manner as we cant stop living just cos we are going to die may be tommrrow.. so here i am making another plan for my life.. picturing myself again in the future.. trying to live the way i should have some 4 years ago.. still its never too late to start over again.. wish me luck!!!

My New Bginning

So here I am, 8.20 am in the morning, writing an article for my blog after so many days... and yes it does feel good… because today I have done a new beginning in my life. Starting from today I m living a new life, a disciplined one. My life hasn’t been without discipline earlier...its just that I prefered living it my way..doing whatever I felt at whatever time. Be it having lunch at 5pm and skipping breakfast or be it sleping at 4 in the morning and waking up at 8am. But from today everything has changed.

Today I woke up at 5.30 am and got ready for my jog. And as I had decided I was on the road at 6am. I did my jogging till 6.30 and then went up the terrace to do a little exercise and yoga till 7am. Then I went to wake up a friend who usually gets up earlier than me J . She suggested playing some table tennis, then snooker...it all finished up till 8 am. So I took bath and now I m here writing about it because this really feels good and I know I am going to do this again.

There are just two things needed for me and everyone else in life: health and career. So from now onwards I am working towards it keeping my mind focused on this. Because life without an aim or a goal is not life. We may think we can spend our life without struggling and taking the pains…but then it wont be worth living… If you stop STRUGGLING then you stop LIVING...because this struggle is what makes life what it is..as its not the options we get, but the choices we make that make what life is and predict what it is going to be… because this is called living…because this is called life.

What I expect from IIITM,gwalior

Note: IIITM recently published its 2nd edition of the alumni magzine IIITM-OUR ALMA MATER. All "industry ambassdors" of each branch were told to submit an article on the above mentioned topic so that it may be printed in the same. When the magzine came out i was more than glad to see that out of whole Mtech only my article was published. thanks to ravi as well who helped me in the same.here is the article for everyone to read. this is what i actually expect from IIITM.
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It wasn’t a tough decision for me at the outset to opt for IIITM Gwalior as a choice to pursue my MTech education. IIITM’s reputation of being an apex technology institute formed by the Govt of India and being a strong brand helped me in my decision. Today a month after I joined, I feel happy for my choice.

IIITM being run by a team of proficient veterans promises to churn out able technology leaders of tomorrow. I imagine myself as a finished product coming out of the college after a couple of years with requisite skills and expertise; and rise to the challenge in the world of IT industry. As IIITM’s vision is to achieve global excellence in knowledge economy, I want to committ myself to this shared vision. I believe this institute will provide me requisite support to realise this vision.

Along with technical expertise, I also want to learn human relations and managerial skills. It has been a concern in India that Indian workforce are technically sound but when it comes to man management, a lot is left to be desired. Therefore, I also hope IIITM provides me ample scope to improve my man management skills and managerial abilities in general.

The kind of opportunites that IIITM has already provided me in this short span, I am confident I will grow individually as a person and make the institue proud with my accomplishments. As our respected Director sir has already said, “Peer to peer learning is the back bone of IIITM”, I also believe I will draw from the experiences and interactions from my fellow mates and faculties to grow into a true professional.

I expect the faculty here not to be just the faculty but to be the life mentors to us and guide us through not just within this two years but all through our lifetime, whenever we need their advice.

Regards,

Isha

A Journey...

My first day at my new college...
27/07/2009


So here I am... at my new college...my new home for the next two years and how am I feeling? Well obviously not at all ‘at home’. I had to face some minor problems today, not just carrying my entire heave luggage to my room at the third floor all by myself but also sleeping on a bed without mattress. Let me not get into the details but the biggest problem I faced today was my father’s accommodation. Here I was thinking that it won’t b any problem but as it turned out even after my mailing and calling the authorities many times, there was still no room reserved for my father. Anyway, finally he got a room at 9 pm and the day was settled. Now I am sitting in my room feeling lonely. No girl of my class has come and I am all alone on the whole floor. I am missing Mumbai and Pune and Hyderabad. The cities and the love they have showered upon me. Well I hated Hyderabad at first but now I wish I were there. Anyway, I tried to get in touch with my friends thru internet but as I haven’t registered as a student yet, I couldn’t log in to the network which required a username and password. Anyway here I am writing this post. Just for you people to know that life is like that. We have to leave aside everything to progress in life. Friends are important but sometimes they can’t be involved in everything you do. Mom once told me, “Life’s like a train journey, some people board the train with you and you talk and get close to them. You share a wonderful journey and some beautiful memories with them. But what you must not forget is that they have to get off the train at some station. And with just memories left, you have to continue your journey. This way make friends but just remember that you have to continue the journey of your life even if your friends are not with you”. So here I am...at my new college...proceeding forward without my friends...all alone...waiting for new passengers to board the train...because this is called life...